What I CAN do.

I'm not good at anything.  This is not a whine or complaint, it's just pure fact.  I'm not super smart, neither can I sing or play an instrument well enough to play in church.  I don't have a past where I won state in any sport and I always sat in the middle of the group in orchestra.  My cooking, cleaning and decorating are not where they should be for someone who's been married for this long and we won't even go into my fashion sense. 
Lately, I'd gotten a tad discouraged and negative about it.  Not because I want to be an awesome _____, but because I home school and I was worried about how it would effect my children.  When New Year's rolled around I started to see Facebook status updates like, "This year is going to be the best one yet!"  or "I can't wait to see what's in store!", while if I had put an honest Facebook update it would have read something like, "I hope I can survive this year".
It kind of got me thinking.  How wonderful would it be to be super positive and excited about the future?  And then I started to think (and be convicted about) my constant negative thoughts and words to myself.  Then I tried to think of something positive about myself and my ability to be a homeschool mom and wife.  Folks, this was hard.  I mean...I'm not good at anything!  All I could think of where the areas I was lacking as a parent, wife and teacher.  Then I changed the question in my mind from "what are you good at?" to "what CAN you do?".  And I thought...I CAN read aloud to my children.  I can read with great expression and they love to listen!  I can teach them hymns and bible verses.  I can lead devotions for them in the morning and teach them by using the bible.  I can teach them to read using the script in 100 easy lessons and I have the time because I stay at home!  I can research and find a great spelling curriculum and follow the directions and give them a much better grasp of spelling than I ever had.  I can recognize when they need help at math and not move to the next concept until they understand it.  I can LOVE them.  I can spend time with them and hug them and listen to what they have to say.  Wow...I know they want those things way more than for me to be a great flute player or mathematician. 
To be a homeschool mother of many I don't have to be super talented, super smart or even super patient.  God has given me everything I need to be their mother, to teach them and raise them.  I am looking forward to this year!  It's going to be the best yet!!