Expectations

Wow! Today has been quite the day! It started off with the girls waking up WAY too early (well, with thea waking up mareea way too early) and my trying to get them to stay in their beds for awhile. Mareea will, but Thea decided that she needed to come out and "test" me every few minutes to see if I'd let her stay up. I finally made it clear that she was not to get up and she was quite nasty to me! Friday is the one day i've decided that they can watch Super Why on PBS and after her behavior I told her she could not. Landon soon lost his TV by saying "blah!" to me when I asked him to take his dirty clothes to where they belonged. So I had 2 mad and overtired littles by 8 am!
We made it to story time where Ashton told me "no" to my face when I told him to sit down and do the craft. It was age appropriate for him and I thought it would be a good thing for him to do. He finally did it, but I was blown away by his defiance! Back at home I tried to get the kids to get their coats on so we could pick up lunch and they just ran around like crazy in the house and as I looked after them noticed that all their toys were all over the place and not picked up. Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

After lunch we went outside due to the children being crazy and wild inside. I have never seen my 2 little girls cry so much! Literally every 5 minutes they either got hurt and cried or made each other mad and screamed and cried. I'd had it and we came in as they obviously were in dire need of a nap. Trying to get them down for nap is always a challenge due to perfected stalling techniques. I really believe we go 2 steps forward 3 steps back when it comes to getting in bed for nap. When I finally did get them down for nap ashton came and told me he had accidentally pulled down the window treatments in his room. I have no idea how to fix those and pray that Dan can.

We need a routine. I feel out of sorts. My kitchen has no storage for food so everything is just kind of stacked around where it will fit. It makes me feel tired and out of control. Children are the same way. With things stacks and tucked in random places they don't have a sense of security. There always seems to be a mess here because there is no where to put things except against the wall. They are pushing, pushing, pushing me to see what they can get away with in this new place..."since I don't have to hang up my coat anymore maybe i can run in the house here, too!" All of this testing and mess make me so short tempered and I had such a hard time dealing with the constant screaming, crying and running with any sort of kindness and love. Especially since I was exhausted from the constant fight to make Thea stay in bed this morning.
It seems that I as a mother also go 2 steps forward, 3 steps back in my journey to Godliness. I am so thankful for God's grace and forgiveness on a day like today. I am praying that after quiet time we will be able to start fresh. I am also very thankful that today is Friday and we will have Daddy home for the weekend!!!